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Well, last night I had a really great time with the Lord and it has been so long. In this post I want to do my best to convey as honestly as I can where I am spiritually, and hopefully it will not be scattered. I feel as though I have become complacent for the last 1 and 1/2 years to 2 years. Like I have not had consistent growth, or maybe it is that I have not been in love with Christ but more indifferent. I have been feeling as though He has been calling me to discipline and a life that is once again centered on Him, I have had infrequent inclinations to do so, but not convicted enough to act. Last night as I got my bible out to prepare a sunday school lesson on the beattitudes I remembered when I did a retreat over that passage with my bible study girls and how the Lord has spoken to me and I really missed Him for the first time in a long time. I longed for the intimacy and fellowship that He offers and was broken over my self centered life. I flipped to Psalm 25 and amazingly the words of David were the exact words that my heart wanted to cry to the Lord.

To You O lord I lift up my soul
O my God, in You I trust
Do not let me be ashamed
Do not let my enemies exult over me
Indeed, none of those who wait for you will be ashamed
Those who deal treacherously without cause will be ashamed.

Make me know Your ways, O Lord
Teach me Your paths.
Lead me in Your truth and teach me
For You are the God of my salvation
For You I wait all the day
Remeber, O Lord, Your compassion and Your lovingkindness
For they have been from of old
Do not remember the sins of my youth or my transgressions
According to Your lovingkindness remember me
For Your goodness' sake, O Lord.

Good and upright is the Lord
Therefore He instructs sinners in the way
He leads the humble in justice
And He teaches the humble His way
All the paths of the Lord are lovingkindness and truth
To those who keep His covenant and His testimonies
For Your name's sake, O Lord
Pardon my iniquity for it great

Who is the man who fears the Lord?
He will instruct him in the way he should choose.
His sould will abide in prosperity
And his descendants will inherit the land
The secret of the Lord is for those who fear Him
And He will make them know His covenant.
My eyes are continually toward teh Lord
For He will pluck my feet out of the net.

Turn to me and be gracious to me
For I am lonely and afflicted
The troubles of my heart are enlarged
Bring me out of my distresses
Look upon my affliction and my trouble
and forgive all my sins.
Look upon my enemies, for they are many
And they hate me with violent hatred.
Guard my soul and deliver me
Do not let me be ashamed for I take refuge in You
Let integrity adn uprightness preserve me
For I wait for You
Redeem Israel O God
Out of all his troubles

Hopefully I have communicated clearly, I am tired of being indifferent and I am ready to be in love with the Lord again and enjoy intimate fellowship with Him